Where Did I Go?

So since I started this blog and since I have been diagnosed it's been over 4 years. Where did it all go. I was in school for a time and then I was in and out struggling with anxiety. Everyone keeps asking where I went.

"Hey I haven't seen you in ages you are never around anymore."
"Hey we should play sometime, where did you go?"

I don't really know what to do or what to say. Should I tell them? I don't have to but they are wondering why I am where I am and what I've been doing. Why I'm not close to finishing school yet. My youth stolen from me. I'm now banking on that I look young as to prolong my 'youth'.

I'm thinking about trying to audition for acting roles. I'm not sure I'm the best actor but I think I would be a great personality to be interviewed. Maybe I just want to not work that hard and just get paid for 'being me'. I think I could treat fame with an interesting take. I would do things in the public eye that I want to see celebrities do. So tangenty but I kinda want to know that people are saying. " oh I used to know that guy, what an ass face." I think I just have a fascination of what people think of me. I am infinitely interested in how people perceive each other and how that compared to what the person thinks of themselves, so when I hear about what people think about me it's easy to do that comparison and I find it really interesting.